Remember how I mentioned before that I just want you to be happy? It is true. The wound is still fresh, even after so many years, and all I feel for you is love. I guess this is why you are my first love. Sometimes, I even wonder if it ever even happened because it ended so abruptly and without closure. Our whole relationship was magical, come to think of it it was strong and powerful, but then, it was gone. This is why, my first love, it is so difficult not to glimpse back and open the vault of memories, to remember the butterflies in my stomach each time I saw you and feel a little out of breath after each magical kiss. Even though we were always ourselves in our relationship, we never got too comfortable. Looking back, I now laugh about how jealous I would get and how I would deal with my jealousy. It was only because I feared losing you, and no matter how much you told me you loved me, I was always a bit insecure. My freedom and dreams were never compromised because you always supported me and believed that I could do anything. We were committed to our relationship and our love was only for us to share.
YOU ARE MY FIRST LOVE HOW TO
We are all flawed, but you already knew that and learned how to understand me. I am not saying you are perfect you are certainly flawed. I wanted all you could give me you are the reason I do not want to settle because you raised the bar so high. You made life so full of excitement and passion that I felt exhausted but could not stop. My first love, even though I do not see you and only merely know about your survival through Facebook and Instagram, I just like to occasionally check in, to see that you are happy.Įven though you may or may not read this, I have to admit that you were the first one to make me see life in different shapes and colors. This letter is for you, so that you know how much I cherished you and how important you were - and are - in my life. You were the first I ever loved, and it breaks my heart to say that you are not my last.